Born Again Hypocrite

So there are a few of you out there who know me… well, knew me. I’m sure most of you haven’t seen me in at least a couple years, but you have seen my posts on Facebook or Myspace. I’m pretty sure that at least once you’ve wondered, “What is he talking about?!!” or, “Who is this?” So it’s obvious that I’m not the same person that you partied with, smoked some-n with, or watched get arrested. So who is this new me, and where did the old me go? Well I can tell you first off that the old me is dead, buried and gone, never to return again. The things that have occurred in my life in recent years have been nothing short of miraculous. In a very short span of only five years I have gone from broke, drunk every night, on probation, job-hopping, “self-medicating”, getting arrested, fighting with anyone who wanted to, and being a not-very-nice boyfriend, to being free-er than I’ve ever been, [happily] married with two wonderful boys, a wonderful career in the palm of my hands, and the son of a King.

It could almost seem like an overnight transition, if not for the many times I fell flat on my face during the transition period. I mean I’ve gotten drunk, fought with my wife, been arrested, and disgraced this King that I claim to love more times than I care to remember. With all of this, in light of this evidence you could even question if the change is genuine, and you would be right to do so. I can tell you this though, the change in me is more genuine than the most passionate animal lover you know. I am not the same person, and I am never going back. The crazy part is this, I could go back, in an instant, if not for the grace of God. It’s by this same grace, this grace that keeps me suspended in a constant state of joy, longing to separate myself from sin to the nth degree, that has saved me in the first place. If not for this grace I would be in the same wretched and vile state I was in before I ever realized Jesus as my savior.

These failures that I speak about, they have caused those around me, people I love, to question the sincerity of my commitment to this Christian life. They have even caused some in my circle to call me the same name that every Christian dreads to be called, a hypocrite. But I stand guilty of the accusation. I was a hypocrite, and still am in some ways, I must confess. I still make mistakes. I still let myself down. I still let my loved ones down, but thank God that I can never let Him down… because I never held Him up. Just as I stand here guilty of the accusation of being a hypocrite, which I may as well be a murderer because by my actions I may have killed who someone was going to be-and the bible says that if you break one law, you’ve broken them all, but just as I’m guilty of that, I stand with a conscience free of guilt, knowing that the price for my sins has been paid. I will not and can not be held accountable in the High Court for my actions. It is for this reason that my mind is overwhelmed daily, and at the same time relieved. Overwhelmed because I know that if for one second God were to remove His hand of grace from my life, I would again return to my foolish ways, just as a dog will always return to lick up its own vomit. Relieved because I know without an iota of doubt that my Father has me securely in His hands, and there is nothing that can separate me from the love that Christ has for me. In the words of Marvin Gaye, “How sweet it is, to be loved by YOU!”


So You Believe in God?

For everyone who calls yourself a Christian; The word Christian is only in the bible (3) three times, Acts 11:26, Acts 26:28, and 1 Peter 4:16. Our call is to be disciples of Christ. In fact, when the word Christian is first used, it’s used to refer to disciples. In being disciples we are called to make disciples. How can we make disciples if we’re not being one our self. Christianity is too easy here, it’s no wonder we’re not being or making disciples.

We’re told from jump that all we have to do believe a set of facts about Jesus in order to be a “Christian”, in other words, to be saved. Well by that definition, even Satan himself could be saved, because he knows beyond the shadow of a doubt that Jesus is God’s son. So there you go, even the devil believes in God, and shudders. But the bible calls for so much more than this. So much more.

We are so easily satisfied, yet so discontent. Our money, our cars, our houses; all vanity. We hustle and work and strive for what? Dirt… A pile of dirt. When all we have to do is ask, and full joy would be ours for the taking. The bible says, “Delight yourselves in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart.” (Psalm 37:4) Yet, we continue on in misery, content with bumper-sticker christianity. What a shame it is!

If you want to know how to truly be saved please visit either one of the links at the top of this page, entitled “Salvation” and “Salvation2”. Now watch the video.